Admittedly, I'm a very impatient and temperament fella and I'm trying to retain my composure from time to time on most occasions. Now that i'm in a more stable state to speak, i shall then use the chance to catch up on the same issue.
In my own perspective view, the crux of the matter lies gravely on societal pressures and trying to conform. It's seemingly impossible to strike a balance among all that matters to us; between friends and boyfriend on top of having to juggle with family and other personal issues. Unless we split ourselves into two to be at different places at a time. LOL! because we are not biological engineered to possess the incredible ability, we are bound to set priorities and make choices in life.
Yenling, it was good to do some clarifications nonetheless. But i was abit mad over what you said the other day (half or more of the contents were about jofri), because i expected better from you. My bad. I understand your intentions of wanting to stand by Jofri, I just wish you could make time out for us the way you'd do for Jofri (if you get my drift).
On my part, I understand that my frequent missing in actions are darn frustrating. To clear the air a little, I'm coming to a stop at crossways when i'm supposed to continue with the rat race. Before i make the decision which path i decides to take on (and continues the race), I'm going through hell loads of mental ordeals. First, I sees myself as an underacheiver. I could have gotten a decent diploma like how you all did, and maybe progress to take a degree. Instead, I went all out and make my life even more complicated. Now i'm contemplating whether to start on what i've missed out over the past couple of years, or to just continue what i've been doing lately, in the hopes of climbing up the ladder.
Next, in the midst of planning the future, I've thoughts of moving to somewhere more peaceful (least for me). like i have mentioned to yenling, i might not be coming back to singapore after my course. I know this is going to be a huge stepping stone to settle in a total new environment etc., there are alot of factors i've to take into considerations.
We can barely see / know what's going to unfold in the next 5-10 years. There are point of times we have to re-evaluate our priorities. We have goals to achieve, expectations to live up to and responsibilities to bear. But without the people around, it's hard to paint the big picture. what's the point of accomplishment when you have nobody around to share with ?
What we have now may not seems to be a huge issue. i think it should be appropriate to address it out and work out the differences rather than keeping it to ourselves. Unhealthy and stuffs like these often leads to a blunt ending. Friends are like wine, the older the better (at least to me)!
Last but not least, i'm surprised that joy the great have yet to utilise this page to voice out her thoughts. HAHAHA!
"Friends are certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love, but do not knock the door of the kindred only in time of calamity"- YOURS TRULY !
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